The moss looked dry but wasn't. Or looked wet but was. I stood close enough to check and still couldn't tell.
Hozenji Yokocho at seven in the morning is a different problem than it is at night. At night it asks you to feel something. At seven it just exists — the stone face, the accumulated green, the smoke from hours ago hanging in the lane with nowhere to go. I was the only one there for a few minutes. The city hadn't started yet. I don't mean it was quiet. I mean it hadn't decided what it wanted from anyone.
The knit was right for it. Something that stands with you rather than moves around you. I photographed it, but the image couldn't hold what I felt looking at it for longer than made sense. The moss stayed with me anyway.
Fukushima in the morning: a man hosing the pavement in front of a shop that wasn't open yet, the water finding the cracks immediately, spreading out flat and black and specific. The light in late March does something to wet stone that it doesn't do to dry. I kept noticing it all day. It doesn't feel like spring light. It feels like something deciding.
Namba by afternoon was what Namba is. I didn't fight it. I ate standing at a counter — pork, something pickled, rice that had been sitting just long enough to have an opinion about itself. The woman next to me ate with her coat still on. I took that as information.
Around eight I added a layer and immediately felt like I was borrowing someone else's assurance. Which is exactly the right amount for Saturday in Namba. Enough to keep moving.
The lane at Hozenji stayed with me. Not the smoke, not the stillness. The moss. That particular green that has been there longer than the restaurants on either side of it, longer than the signs, longer than anyone's idea of the place.