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Thursday — Anchor Day: The Dom and Its Shadow

Thursday, July 30, 2026 Domplein / Zandpad / Lombok

in the open flagstone gap between the standing Gothic tower and the choir end — roofless, the sky a pale March rectangle where a nave ceiling was never completed, a thin pale-green weed pushing between two stones at mid-ground — seated on the stone steps at the tower base, head tilted back, watching the last of the pigeons settle back onto flagstones after the quarter-past bell — the sound already gone

The gap is the thing. Not the tower.

I'd known there was no nave — I'd read it, the 1674 tornado, the rest — but knowing it and standing in it are different. The flagstones where the middle should have been are just flagstones. Open sky overhead where ceiling was planned for. I sat on the steps at the base and looked up at nothing, and then at the tower, which is still there, and the choir end, which is still there, and the nothing between them that is somehow the whole point.

Dom Tower rising at left, the roofless choir end at right, open sky filling the absence where the nave should be, flagstones below

Quarter past eight. The square held one man with a broom and the pigeons he was redistributing. I wore the black skirt because the Dom square at eight in the morning felt like somewhere you shouldn't overdress for. The stone was cold through the linen almost immediately. I stayed.

The bells went off at a quarter past. In an enclosed nave the sound would have gathered somewhere overhead and come back down changed. Out here it just left. The pigeons lifted as one thing, circled, landed again in roughly the same arrangement. The man with the broom didn't look up. Between two of the flagstones in the open gap a thin weed had pushed through, pale green, doing well.

on the Zandpad canal path — packed-earth track, the canal to the left running dark olive under overhanging willows and elms, the tree canopy closing the sky to a narrow corridor, the water surface broken by leaf shadow into irregular dark planes — stopped mid-path after taking the wrong fork, weight shifted back, half-turned toward where she came from — the woman and dog already thirty meters gone, absorbed into shade

By the time I got to the canal path I'd changed into the linen trousers — the morning skirt had done its work at the Dom and the afternoon felt like a different kind of walking. The Zandpad path was mostly shade, the canal on one side running dark olive under the trees, and the smell was green and slightly fermented, like cut grass left in standing water. I took the wrong fork at some point and had to ask a woman walking a dog, who pointed back the way I'd come without breaking stride.

at the tiled counter of a small Lombok restaurant — white ceramic tiles, one cracked tile near the edge, the counter lit from below by warm tungsten strip light, a framed photograph of an unrecognized city hanging slightly crooked on the wall above the pass-through — the moment after the clay dish arrives and before the first tear of bread — both hands still, watching the lamb hiss faintly in the dish, steam curling up into the tungsten light

Lombok in the early evening. I put on the knit dress because it was warm and the restaurant didn't need anything considered from me. Handwritten menu, a TV running in the back showing something in Arabic. The room smelled like cumin and fried onion and something underneath both, sweet and older. The counter was tiled in white with one cracked tile near the edge that had been left. A framed photograph of a city I didn't recognize hung slightly crooked above the pass. The lamb arrived in a clay dish, still faintly hissing, and the bread came wrapped in paper. I ate slowly. No one spoke to me. The TV changed channels once.

lamb tagine in a clay dish, still hissing, with bread wrapped in paper alongside on a white tile surface

Outside afterward the light was still going, pale and western, absolutely refusing to become night.

What she wore

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I wore the black skirt because the Dom square at eight in the morning felt like somewhere you shouldn't overdress for.

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By the time I got to the canal path I'd changed into the linen trousers — the morning skirt had done its work at the Dom and the afternoon felt like a different kind of walking.

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I put on the knit dress because Lombok at night is warm and the restaurant didn't need anything considered from me.